This has been ready for like, a week, but while looking for pictures I ended up reading lots of manga <.<
So yeah, there are a lot of eardrums
shaking.
31 The Lady’s True Feelings:
The bitter tone to his voice shook
Iris’ eardrums quietly.
What had he just said?
‘Eh?’ She had issue comprehending
words that she had not imagined would emerge from his lips. She blinked as she
ruminated. Suddenly it dawned on her, and her eyes widened so much her eyes
were likely to fall out. (Zuben: Author’s words!)
No way! Matthias would not have told
Ernest. It must be a lie. It must be a joke. He hadn’t even replied her after
the letter.
Iris paled at the realisation; she was
at a loss for words. Although his expression was one of despair, she could
still see his love for her.
‘You want to leave me and go and hide
at the villa your parents left you?’
‘That is…’
She had been intending to do so, but
that was only after Ernest had been cured of the love potion’s effects.
‘Are you going to keep betting on the
chance that my mind will change?’ He asked harshly.
Once the love potion’s effect was erased,
and he lost his deep love for her; Iris believed she would become an annoyance.
That was why she wanted to leave his side in a timely manner to respect
Ernest’s heart.
‘Do you want to leave my side so
much?’ He asked staring at Iris. His deep affection had not changed. But he did
not know about the love potion. Matthias had likely only told him part of the
letter without revealing anything about the love potion. (Zuben: Maybe not keeping her in the dark
might help bro)
Why? Why did Matthias do this?
So she hadn’t held back in the letter;
but, she had threatened him if he did not get what she wanted. (Zuben: He knows
you ain’t got the balls)
So why had he done this. Ernest was
still under the effects of the potion; telling him about Iris moving to the villa
would only hurt him. Even if she had signed the marriage contract, it was a
terrible betrayal to make him sad while he was still under the influence. Why
would he hurt Ernest like this? If it was about making Iris Queen, Matthias
could have thought of other methods.
Anger and bewilderment rose. Above it
all, was remorse.
‘Is this feeling still a nuisance to
you?’
She wanted to shake her head and deny
it; no, it wasn’t annoying. She wanted to tell him that she was so happy that
she could cry. She wanted to tell him that she wanted to stay by his side
forever.
…But she could not do it.
The love in his heart was as a result
of his love potion.
She could not be by his side without
misgivings. She could not forget her great sin and deprive him of true happiness.
In a corner of her heart, she gave a
sorrowful cry, but another corner laughed at her own stupidity: what a pathetic
lie. In the face of her own ridicule, another realisation appeared: Maybe she
was afraid; afraid that the love potion might be cut off unexpectedly. Afraid
that in that moment, his golden eyes so full of love for her, will be full of
contempt and embarrassment. As soon has Ernest had realised she had wanted to
escape, she the fear had come just as much as her desire for his happiness.
‘I’m sorry,’ she said.
She paled as she said that; to what
extent was she foolish? I’m sorry?
Iris was the perpetrator and Ernest
was a victim. Iris felt foolish, she was timid and tearful and full of sadness.
She bit her lips to stop herself from crying.
Ernest smiled bitterly as he said,
‘Really…?’
She wanted to tell him that it was not
as it seemed; but it was too late to refute. She could no nothing once the
chance was gone. (Zuben: You could open your mouth)
Ernest remained silent watching her expressions.
Iris was puzzled by a situation that
was vastly different from her expectations; she had no idea what to do. She
opened her mouth, fearing that her weakness would make her unqualified thoughts
come through when she saw a dark flame burn in Ernest’s eyes. He kissed her,
biting her lips.
‘Hn!’ she cried out as his teeth
grazed her delicate lips and he forced his tongue into her mouth. The kiss was
not sweet or tender. He kissed her ferociously.
Iris was overwhelmed by the intensity;
she tried to push Ernest away from her. But he held her tightly disallowing any
resistance. His body was heavy on top of hers. Iris realised he had been
cherishing her this past few weeks as she experienced his entire weight bearing
down on her. Even if it was untrue, Iris
realised how deep his love for her ran. She could feel his uncontrollable pain
and sorrow.
Ernest plundered her mouth as Iris
bore tears that threatened to spill. He was everywhere, sucking and licking the
little tongue that tried to escape him. He squeezed it as though he wanted to
rob her of her heart. His kisses were rough but Iris did not feel aversion to
him, her body was filling up with familiar pleasures. She was happy despite
knowing this was not real; she thought herself stupid and shallow.
She grew flushed and began to pant.
Her sight became blurred as she began to cry,
‘Ernest…’ she called gently trying to
placate him, ‘please stop now.’
She was now determined to release him
from the curse of the love potion. She will give him the antidote - for his
happiness. After that, he would definitely regret his actions today more than
he would regret taking her. He was not the kind of man who would use a woman
roughly without her consent; he would never. She knew, from these past six
weeks, that he was a bright, generous and loving man.
She did not want her beloved Ernest to
regret this day. She put her hand on his wide shoulders intending to stop him,
when she heard a light scrape of metal ringing loudly in the room. Ernest had
reached down for his belt and was taking it off.
Why was he removing his belt?
Ernest grabbed her slender wrists and
tied them together with his belt to keep her from resisting.
‘Ernest, take it off.’
‘No matter how much you wish it, my
mind will never change in this lifetime.’ He growled making her tremble, ‘You
absolutely will not escape.’
His golden eyes burned with dark
intensity as he bound Iris.
‘Ernest, please! Release me!’
She begged him, her violet eyes full
of fear.
He gave her a mocking smile that looked
sinister in the half light of the evening.
‘If you want to leave me, I will just
keep you from leaving.’
‘What do you mean…?’
His words induced a dark thrill within
her; knowing that his love was mixed in his dark anger sent sweet shivers down
her spine.
‘I just love you, Iris.’ (Zuben:
Telling her you love her isn’t really the answer to this clusterfuck)
Why was his large hand running down
her dress to her lower belly? (Zuben: Why is it that Iris asks stupid
questions)
‘Let us make our children now, so that
you will never think you can leave me.’
Ernest’s voice shook her tympanic
membrane, she gasped. Despite the feel of the belt around her wrists, she felt
his impossible love for the first time this evening. His voice sounded so sweet
it made her hips ache, so luscious that her brain felt like it would melt.
(Zuben: He hasn’t even done anything yet. And then when he starts doing, you
start protesting)
32 The Lady’s Ardent Love:
‘Fu, ~un, un ~’
Letting go of her tied hands, Ernest
ran his fingers down her face and held her jaw. He kissed her already throbbing
lips forcefully. His tongue roughly invaded her mouth, despite this, Iris’ body
was now accustomed to the pleasure Ernest gave her, and she was obedient to his
desire.
‘Nn ~ah~ fu~’
As he sucked on her tongue, the heat
grew between her legs and she began to feel wet as honey poured out of her.
Even though, her mind still desperately appealed for her to stop Ernest, her
body was shamefully accepting of him.
Her hips rocked against him
indecently.
Was he aware, during their fierce
kiss, of her mounting desire?
He pulled up her dress and caressed
her smooth thigh sensually.
‘Ahn~’ she moaned.
Anticipation grew with the slight
stimulation, and her body ached with an indescribable need. She really didn’t
want him to touch her there, but her hips swayed lewdly against him as though
inviting him.
Realising this, Iris held herself
still, and tried to twist away from him wanting to erase her secret desires.
But Ernest stopped her as his fingers
pushed through the elastic of her drawers.
He laughed at her, realising that she
was wet despite her resistance,
‘Ah~ please stop it nn~’
She was ashamed, and her face was red
with embarrassment. She closed her eyes to escape his knowing gaze. She tried
to break away, but Ernest easily stopped her; burying his long fingers into her
wet honey pot.
‘No!’ she cried as her hips bounced
against his fingers crawling inside her wet cave.
‘Your mind refuses me, but I am happy
to note that your body doesn’t hate me yet.’ Ernest said with a hint of relief
and dark pleasure in his voice as he stimulated her honey pot.
‘Ahn~, please stop already~’ she
cried.
It was no work for him to sink Iris,
whose body he was very familiar with, into the deep sea of sensuality. He used
his fingers to tease the back of the secret bud, and a sweet numbness ran
through her body causing her to throw back her head, spreading her dark hair
across the bed.
‘If you want to reach, you should just
let yourself go.’ He said with a dark laugh. There was something dark and
distorted in his eyes as he watched her hold back in vain. He quickened the
stirring of his finger inside her, as his thumb began to roll and crush the
little bud over her petals.
‘No~ ahn not…there ahn~’
As his slimy finger teased the secret
bud, a sharp pleasure shot though her causing flashes behind her eyes. As he ran his fingers up and down her inner
muscles, her brain was suffused with a deep sensuality she could drown in. With
her weaknesses being stimulated at the same time, sweet pleasure dominated her
body and mind. But he held her body down
with his, it was impossible to arch her back – divert the pleasure elsewhere,
she grabbed the sheet with her toes.
‘Hnn, oh- oh~ no more’ she cried.
Even though her wrists were
restrained, her back arched instinctually.
Her honey pot expanded and contracted
repeatedly around his finger
‘I don’t think you would dislike it if
I entered you right now.’ He said with a hooked smile. She saw him through eyes
blurred with tears of pleasure. She could not refute him because at that moment
she climaxed. She would have shaken her head to tell him that was not the case;
the desire of the one she loved was never going to be unpleasant to her.
After all, she…she intended to release
him from the effects of the love potion (Zuben: Fuck we know this – how many
more times are you going to have to tell yourself)
When she finally left the royal
palace, she would go to her family’s country house and if she became pregnant;
she would give birth secretly. (Zuben: Like it is that easy)
It may not be possible for Ernest to
marry another person, as he was not good with women. Iris was willing to accept
all of him, hoping it would result in a child. Even though the child may have
been conceived in a false love, the child would be testimony of her short-lived
happiness. She would raise the child carefully as a treasure and cherish it
alone. (Zuben: all by myseeeeeeelf)
But not at this moment, not while Ernest
was feeling brutal betrayal. Even though his negative feelings were caused by the
effects of the love potion, Iris was also distressed; neither of them was
happy.
With mind full of dark thoughts, how
could she teach her beloved child about happiness while raising him alone?
(Zuben: Indeed, how do you tell a kid you were conceived while daddy was
angry?)
‘Ernest,’ she called. She focused her
gaze on him and said, ‘Please forgive me…’
The effervescent feeling of tears ached
in the back of her nose and tears started to fall. But what would crying
achieve; she held the tears back as best she could.
They stared at each other in silence
for what felt to Iris like an eternity. Ernest had a conflicted look on his
face. He rose from her.
Ernest…
Surely, he understood her thoughts.
(Zuben: yes, 'cos he's a mind reader)
She felt inwardly relieved.
But then her eardrums picked up the
faint noise of clothes being taking off. No word of acceptance or rejection.
(Zuben: Are her eyes closed?)
‘Give it up, Iris.’ He said quietly.
His voice penetrated her tympanic membrane to her heart, making her chest
feel painfully tight.
He picked up a soft thigh, and pierced
her with his male core; Iris’ eyes widened in surprise.
Thank you very much for the upload!! I gotta get my very stupid slightly mindf*cking dose of Japanese smut lol.
ReplyDeleteHonestly though, why doesn't Iris just spill the beans about the (fake) love potion at this point?
I mean Ernest is already pretty much forcing her, so it supposedly can't get much worse, since he's stil under the (very fake) effect of the (really just candy) love potion, and therefore (probably) won't kill her the very moment she tells him...
At least I think that is a better altenative than raising a child borne out of an angry bout in the sack (really rape) in seclusion to ensure it is kept secret.
Oh well it's smut, better not overthink it lol ^.^
Thanks for the upload again! keep up the good work!
I wonder why her backbone is non existent whenever faced with the ml. i mean, she was introduced as someone who has strong personality. She basically transforms to a typical mary sue for plot convenience.
ReplyDeleteI think she's way worse than a typical Mary Sue. They usually go out and do interesting stuff rather than sit at home submitting to their husbands.
DeleteAnd they tend to have at least some backbone and braincells, even if it's never as much as the author says they have.
I have to say, I used to find your running commentary kind of annoying and unnecessary, but later into the story I think I became grateful for all the comments you made... because the story has grown so exasperating that your comments are more amusing to me.
ReplyDelete(Do you think the author has an eardrum fetish or something?)
It looks likely that she does have an eardrum fetish because that would be the only sane explanation for the insanely insistent use of the word.
DeleteI just love the commentary because it voice out what I'm currently thinking as well. I was at the point of giving up on the plot but your commentary helps me endure the whole fiasco. Thank you, Zuben
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