Do Not Reconcile 11 - 12 (h)

11 Those Panties: 

Yu Feixu was Huo Mu’s cousin. She had recently gotten involved with a scummy man so she asked Huo Mu to take wedding pictures with her, so she could fool the scum man. His cousins had always been kind to him, so he wanted to repay her in any way he could.

When he got released from prison, he did not run straight to Guanguan, but he had her investigated and knew everything about her. Knowing she had opened a bridal shop after graduating from university, he had chosen that shop for his cousin because he had wanted to see her.

He wanted to know if they had a chance. See Guanguan and find out if she hated him or not. (Zuben: The way you went about it was rather stupid though)

He thought everything was going well, but then it was ruined by her boyfriend. He really wanted to know if she had one. At the hotel, he thought she had been joking, but it seems not. He had wanted to know if she really had a boyfriend, if there was really a chance for them to be together. But it seems that they could never be, because her answer was yes. (Zuben: Stubbornly not explaining the situation to her in the first place brought you to this point)

It was impossible.

Huo Mu returned to his apartment in the middle of the night. In the last two years, he was often at work till two or three in the morning striving hard to build up his company. He had wanted to shorten the distance between them quickly, so the past few years had been difficult, he had been unable to sleep from the pressure.

This small apartment he bought on loan. He looked around the place with it’s black and white décor and fell into a deep loneliness.

On the contrary, Guanguan lived in a luxury apartment her parents had bought for her on graduation. It was now worth tens of millions according to the market appreciation. He came to realise no matter how he tried he could not measure up.

He entered his bedroom and took off his clothes and the rubber band on his wrist was removed carefully. In the past years, he had taken great care of this rubber band. He had never removed it since she put it on him, except when he bathed or touched water. It had been kept well. In his time in prison, he had been supported by this. As he went to shower, he glanced at the pictures of him and Guanguan from their teens. They were in their school uniforms and it was their graduation day. Guanguan had brought a camera and asked another student to take their photo. When the picture was shot, Guanguan had kissed his cheek, and that time was frozen in that shot.

Those days he had been looking forward to going to the same university as Guanguan, his second choice had been the school Guanguan’s grades could get to, so if she had scored poorly, he would go with her to a lower grade university.

If that incident hadn’t happened, he would have been with her forever, married and living as a couple. Thinking of this, he laughed ironically, and his eyes turned red. He sniffed resisting the urge to cry. He shook out his jacket and shirt, and pulled out a pair of knickers from his suit pocket. The one Guanguan had thrown at him. It had been wet, and now it was dry but the marks and her scent was still on it. When he thought of that afternoon, he rolled his throat. Without holding back, he put the panties on his nose and sniffed it, it still smelled of her.

Her scent fascinated him. And his dragon woke, hard.

He sat on his bed and took off his trousers and underpants, and grabbed his hard cock. In his mind, he replayed their mad sex in their teens, when he would insert his thing into her mouth and thrust fiercely. The thought of the warmth and tightness of her mouth, sucking him tightly, sending bliss to his scalp. Where her small tongue would lick around him, he always thought he would surrender immediately, thinking of the pleasure she gave him. The mental image wasn’t enough, so he held her panties against this stiff dick, as though he was wrapped tightly by her tenderness, it was visually satisfying.

His shot out all on her panties. As he shot, thinking of Guanguan’s tenderness, he called out her name. (Zuben: I can’t decide if I should be touched or appalled. I suppose I could do both)

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Guanguan found she was a little testy lately.

Before, she would sleep in till two or three in the afternoon, before spending the day eating take out. But recently, she was always at work. She couldn’t sleep, always tossing and turning, so she was always at work. This day, Huo Mu’s fiancée turned up.

She came to get the bridal pictures. She had approved the pictures without any changes.

Yu Feixu looked at the pictures in satisfaction, ‘Yes, I am very happy with this. Your skills are very good. I have sent the final payment.’

Yu Feixu lifted the large frame. Seeing such a small girl carry such a cumbersome thing, Guanguan quickly offered to help.

‘Let me help.’

‘Thank you,’ she said. They took the photos to Yu Feixu’s car, and the girl thanked Guanguan again.

As she got into the driver’s seat, Guanguan asked, ‘Today is a weekend, why didn’t your husband come with you?’

As Yu Feixu closed her car door, she said, ‘The man is not my husband, he’s my cousin.’

‘Huh?’ Guanguan’s mind went into meltdown.

Because she could ask for more explanation, Yu Feixu had driven off.

Huo Mu was not her husband…but her cousin?!

They were not married. But-but, why the wedding photos?!

12 Single:

Guanguan entered the shop looking dazed and confused, her mind was a whir with that Yu Feixu had said.

He’s not my husband, he’s my cousin. Not my husband, he’s my cousin. Just her cousin?

She screamed. She felt like she was going crazy, her paced back and forth before grabbing her hair and collapsing on her desk.

How was this? If he was not her husband but her cousin, that meant, they were not married and Huo Mu…was single?

Is that what it meant?

Was she misunderstanding?

The more she thought, the more her head ached. How did things become like this? The problem was that she couldn’t get to the bottom of it and ask the question directly.

There was no one to talk to this about. Certainly not her assistants, especially since Xiaoyu had been shipping Yu Feixu and Huo Mu.

Should she ask Huo Mu? (Zuben: yes)

She quickly picked up her phone and went to WeChat, she had blackened him, and he had blackened her…

How could she send him a message?

If she sent him a text message directly, it would be weird. After all, she had vehemently told him not to harass her again in the future. If she went to harass him was she still a person? (Zuben: This is stupid, girl)

She had a sudden thought, and contacted their class captain in high school. They should know: Class captain, class captain, I wanted to know; have you been in contact with Huo Mu recently? I wanted to know if he was married or if he has a girlfriend, or is about to get married. Do you know?

Once she sent the message, she waited anxiously for an answer.

Half an hour later: I don’t know. I haven’t spoken to him since graduation from high school. I haven’t heard that he came back from schooling abroad. I don’t know what happened to him. Everyone is disconnected, I don’t know what’s going on now. Why are you looking for his news, are you looking to eat his grass?

Guanguan was taken aback by the question, how could it be possible? Why would she want to eat back grass?

Wasn’t she thrown away?

It would be too embarrassing; she gave a perfunctory reply: Oh no. I had a dream and remembered him. I didn’t know who it was for a long time, so I was puzzled, hence I asked you. (Zuben: yeah, that’s very believable)

Class captain: … (Zuben: Class captain agrees)

Guanguan couldn’t bear it anymore. She used to be an open, carefree person. As long as there was gossip she would probe deeply. But now, she didn’t know why she couldn’t be frank.

She saw a promotional leaflet for her shop from the corner of her eye, and had an idea. She took a picture of it, and sent it via MMS to Huo Mu.

Good News! We’re having our 2^nd year anniversary special. Book a wedding photo shoot online and save 2000yuan! With a hyperlink to the shop’s website added.

Once she sent it, she waited for a few minutes before sending another text.

Apologies, we are sending out bulk offers and it was sent to you accidentally. But it’s very favourable, if you want to get married again, come to our shop and you will get a 10% discount as an acquaintance.

There was no reply. She suddenly felt like an idiot, but she just wanted to talk to him.

Suddenly there was a text notification, she jumped in fright before scrambling to read it. He replied: No need. I will not be marrying. Keep it for yourself.

Guanguan was flummoxed.

She just wanted to ask if he really had a fiancée or not. Was he married? Was he single?

She had so many things to ask, but lacked the gall to do so.

So ridiculous.

Guanguan could not go back.

A new message popped up on WeChat, it was class captain again: Guanguan, about Huo Mu, wasn’t he supposed to go to Qingda? I met our former year teacher, and he was very bitter about it. At the time, Huo Mu was slated to go to Qingda on full scholarship, he was the pride of the province. His attendance to Qingda would have been a credit to our high school. But he never went.

Guanguan frowned, and typed: Qingda? He chose to go to Harvard, and went abroad to study.

Class captain sent a puzzled emoticon: How is that possible? I saw his university application with my own eyes; he couldn’t change it after turning it in. His first choice was Qingda, his second choice was Huake. I teased him about it at the time, because his second choice was the same as your first choice. When I teased him, he blushed and smiled; I was shocked.

Guanguan was blind-sided by the reply, her head was buzzing.

He had filled in the same school as she did?

Impossible. Absolutely impossible. Those words he had said, she would never forget,

Jin Guanguan, don’t be stupid. If I lie to you, you would believe it. How could I go to the same school as you? I never planned on staying in this shitty country. I never picked the same school as you. I mean, your IQ and my IQ, are they the same? Do you think I want to be downgraded to you? I applied to a school in America, and my application was accepted. I will leave the country tomorrow.

He had been so cruel.

But according their class captain, his university choices were as she had known them to be. He had wanted to study with her. But why would he have lied?

She wanted to ask him; things were no longer adding up.

But she still hesitated. She was no longer the Guanguan of her teenage years, that went headlong into what she wanted, with youthful elan and a heart of enthusiasm and not worried about losing.

Now, the impetuousness had been tempered with time, she was timider and more cautious. She was not as brave as she used to be.

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