I saw the Sun:
Yin Ting looked at Zhengqing and
was filled with warmth.
He had changed the ring. Just a
small matter; but it was unexpectedly touching.
His confession had been special too.
It wasn’t the photo that was special, but that he carefully pondered on every
statement he had made. It wasn’t just “I like you, let’s be together” but I
like you, why I like you, what I will do when I like you, what I can do for
you. If you do like me, how to we live?
“I love you” is an emotion. “What
to do?” is life. He put his feelings for her into his life.
The framed slideshow had not been
for romance, she understood. Because this man didn’t know what romance was. He
was only expressing his promise to her.
His proposal wasn’t ostentatious
nor was it an elaborate surprise. Just a phone call, go out to eat a meal and
stroll down the street to buy the ring. No sweet words, no tears; just a bag to
mention and go home.
He did not understand romance, but
he gave her candy and told her to eat it and be happy. He quietly changed the ring to a better one. He picked her up when she was down and encouraged
her.
She looked at Zhengqing and felt
like he was the most handsome man in the world. He was her sunshine; warm,
bright, illuminating her life.
She leaned forward and kissed him,
‘I will refuel well.’
Her kiss was so sweet, her smile
was so cute. Zhengqing was fascinated and dazed, he asked, ‘What am I to do?’
Yin Ting cocked her head and said,
‘You’re talking yellow again.’
‘…’ Zhengqing frowned, ‘Which
sentence?’
Yin Ting laughed and pounced on
him, ‘”What am I to do?” That sentence.’
Zhengqing was caught off guard and
was almost knocked down but he managed to stabilise the two of them. Yin Ting
did not care; she sat astride Zhengqing and performed a “strong” pose, full of
gas, ‘I have the sun! Let them see! I will never give in!’
Zhengqing grinned, wanting to
laugh, ‘I almost forgot.’ He said.
‘What have you forgotten?’
‘I had forgotten that you have “I
am very spirited everyday” medicine.’
She laughed and winked as she said,
‘Well it’s not “I’m very nervous everyday”, so your evaluation is fair.’
Zhengqing laughed, ‘To me, these
two are the same medicine.’
Yin Ting pouted and swatted him,
Zhengqing smiled at her expression and said, ‘I also have a medicine,’
‘What is it? “I am very serious
everyday”?’
He gave wide smile and his eyes
were very gentle, ‘No, it’s “I love you everyday” medicine.’
Yin Ting stared at him.
‘I love you very much, whether
you’re spirited or nervous.’
Yin Ting was touched again. It
wasn’t good to be so easily moved. But what about it? Although her serious
gentleman husband’s love quotient wasn’t very high, she liked him because she knew
what he said was true. She hugged him tightly and said, ‘You cannot stop taking
that medicine, Mr Qiu.’
‘Hao, I won’t stop. You should be
happy. Don’t worry about those people. It is important you live your life well.
I will be with you and watch you become a happy boss, and then a happy old
woman. And we will tell our grandchildren the stories of your travels.’
Yin Ting smiled as she looked up at
him, ‘Then you will be a serious uncle and then a serious boss?’
‘Yes.’
Yin Ting laughed happily and buried
her head in his arms. She was so happy; a happy old woman and serious boss lord.
She couldn’t help but kiss the enemy’s lips. Zhengqing retreated backwards, but
she clung to the collar of his pyjamas and kissed him deeply.
‘You know, I don’t wear pyjamas
when I sleep alone.’ He said.
‘So?’ Yin Ting asked as she licked
his lips, she felt very happy to see him nervous and shy.
‘Because you were dressed before
me, I was afraid you would be impulsive.’
‘…’ Yin Ting swiftly retreated. She
hadn’t thought about it at all.
‘You wearing my t-shirt is making
me impulsive.’
‘um…’
‘And now you’re so passionate…’ he
didn’t finished.
Yin Ting tried to retreat. Seeing
his heated gaze made her blush.
Zhengqing sighed, dressed in his
t-shirt, being so passionate about him. He reached out and fished her back to
him. He only wanted to kiss her, but some things you can’t control.
He frowned like he was very upset,
‘We will get married when the event is done.’ He couldn’t wait.
Yin Ting laughed and blushed, ‘It
doesn’t matter. In any case, you can’t get too old to have children.’
‘Who is old?’It was too much, ‘Who
is old?’ A man can not be insulted, the man’s dignity cannot be deceived.
(Zuben: hmm okay)
Yin Tin laughed, turned him over
and overwhelmed him. Zhengqing decided he really could not wait and turned her
over. The two were panting and hot when Zhengqing jumped up.
Almost forgot the little guy!
He grabbed the cat and threw it
outside the bedroom and shut the door.
Yin Ting laughed.
At the window, the sun still shone
through the gap. (Zuben: Out of focus, fade to black)
Zhengqing was late to work for the
first time in many years.
It wasn’t just a few minutes, it
was a full two hours late.
When he entered his office, his
face was very serious and stony. When the colleagues saw him, they did not dare
say anything so the atmosphere in the office was solemn. Zhengqing entered his office with
narrow eyes and large strides and did not come out again.
It looked like the situation was a
bit bad; was Tingting Yuli413’s situation on the internet getting worse?
Everyone quietly gossiped amongst themselves.
They all went on Tingting Yuli’s
blog to check; there had been no updates but the abuse and support camps were
still adhering to their positions. Although, it was a lot more then yesterday.
Because of the Xiu statement, there were no more of the so-called “absolutely
true inside scoop” news. Despite that, it would not block malicious
speculation, there were people waiting for it.
But, the situation did not seem
worse. Could Tingting Yuli not bear it and Qiu zong was feeling the burden of
unbearable pressure?
As everyone speculated outside, in his office, Zhengqing was on the phone to Yin Ting.
‘Are you at work?’
‘Yes.’
‘Did you walk in with your super serious
face?’
‘No.’
‘Hmm, but you are particularly
serious when you are shy.’
Zhengqing coughed twice. Miss
Angel, you must take care of your boyfriend’s face.
Yin Ting laughed.
‘Have you seen your dad?’ he asked.
After their sweet time in the
morning, he took her out for breakfast and took her home to change then took
her to the hospital. Even though he knew he was late, he did not want to leave
her. This morning had been very special, very important and significant to him
and Yin Ting. They really didn’t want to separate. However, he still had to
work and she still had her battle.
‘Yeah, he’s fine. He can be
discharged at noon.’
‘You must be standing outside the
door giggling.’ He said
‘I’m not.’
‘Then you must be in a quiet place where no one can see you.’
‘Hmmm…’ that was true.
‘Although it’s been less than half
an hour apart, you must have missed me.’
‘Not true,’ she pouted. Why was he
so mean and expose her? Still this was Serious, he let his future wife save
face,
‘I miss you too.’
Fine. She felt like she had kept
her face.
‘I showed my ring to dad.’
‘And?’ he asked nervous.
‘He said it is pretty.’
‘Oh,’ he replied with a sigh of
relief.
‘I told him you picked it. He said
you have a good eye.’
Zhengqing chuckled and Yin Ting
laughed, then she added, ‘My dad said to tell Aunt make two more dishes, you
should come for dinner.’
‘Alright,’ he replied happily.
‘I told him about yesterday and how
unhappy I was. He told me how bad could it be, I should fight.’
Zhengqing smiled imagining Yin
Guohao’s tone of voice
‘So when I get home later, I will
issue an announcement.’
‘Hao,’ Zhengqing did not trust her
not to, so he reminded her, ‘Remember what we discussed; don’t look at the
comments, do not control forwarding, just stick to your post and leave. This is
your current attitude to life.’
‘Yeah,’ she replied nodding hard.
Regardless of what others say, she should only care about people who love her.
That afternoon, the event page was
afire again because Tingting Yuli413 had posted: Thank you for your concern, I
have something to say.
First, which is most important,
there is no black box activity for this event. I did know about the event in
advance and actively prepared. But the methods I have participated in the event
is the same as other participants. I did not think too much when I posted my
stories because there was nothing to cover up or lie about. I was frank and
just recorded my life and shared my joy. It is no different from the last five
years I have been blogging. This has been called into question and I deeply
apologise to the Xiu management, my family and friends who have been supporting
me. I am here to say I'm sorry, everyone.
But I will not withdraw from the
event because I have done nothing wrong.
I believe my posts are very good
and l like them very much. This is my voice; my friends who read it think it is
very good. So I shall continue to write and post.
In addition, I am not strong enough
and will be influenced be the negative comments, so I will not be reading the
comments in the short term. My supportive friends; I know your hearts, thank
you, but I am sorry I can’t interact with you at the moment. I will not delete
the comments bad or good, the internet is a public forum; I have presented my
views and you are also presenting yours.
Yesterday was a difficult day for
me, I had never imagined such a thing would happen to me. But it has come, and
I will cherish the harvest. Yesterday, I thought of quitting, but someone told
me that it wasn’t a question of participating in the event; it was a question
of my life. Did I want to give up on enjoying life?
I do not want to give up.
I like to share my happiness with
others. This is what I want to do and it is part of my life, so I will
continue.
When I woke up this morning, I saw
the sun through the turned corner of black out curtains. I thought it was very
beautiful and I felt very encouraged. This airless protection is safe, the
perfection is respectable. However, through the imperfection, I saw the sun!
She also put up the picture of the
dense curtains with the turned corner letting the sun in through the window.
The post was quickly shared and
many people still mocked.
Some people were saying: Now the
brain’s remnants said the wrong thing to expose the truth! Using frankness to
cover up her mistakes.
There were also people cursing her,
calling her arrogant and disgusting.
Someone also said: You wrote such a
long post without a sense of shame, still don’t want to quit in the end?
On the supportive side, there were
replies of: Very good, we must not withdraw and bow to the evil forces.
There were comments of eternal
support.
Someone also said: There is no cost
in questioning or name calling, but there is a huge loss in quitting. Do not
give up on the other side of the screen.
Yin Ting had no knowledge of all
these good or bad. She logged off the moment she posted.
Zhengqing watched and did not say
much. He only shared the post and commented with: Love you! Jiāyóu!
Soon there were messages: Dogs, men
and women, wishing you all the best in a hundred years.
Zhengqing was not angry about it.
It was like trash and the comments were deleted and the posters black listed.
Others saw Yin Ting’s post and
Zhengqing’s stance.
Qi Yufei also wrote: Love you! Jiāyóu!
Mao Huizhu also wrote: Love you! Jiāyóu!
Her fans followed suit: Love you! Jiāyóu!
They no longer confronted people
and just chanted: Love you! Jiāyóu!
Was it a swear? Love you! Jiāyóu!
Irony? Love you! Jiāyóu!
Call us a bunch of psychos? Love
you! Jiāyóu!
Anyway, “Love you! Jiāyóu!”
The event page was filled with
comments of “Love you! Jiāyóu!”
Zhengqing went to the Yin family
home for dinner that evening. Yin Guohao’s expression was a bit dark; he either
ignored Zhengqing or glared at him. Yin Ting smiled happily not noticing what
was going on. She reported the doings of her day and how she was sorting her
finds.
Later, Yin Shi pulled Zhengqing
aside and told him. Guohao went online to read Ying Ting’s blog, he had found
the bad comments ridiculous. He then read Yin Tings statement where he saw the
picture.
Yin Shi put his hand on Zhengqing’s
shoulder, ‘It is not that I betrayed you, but Xiaoting’s heart is too wide,
“She didn’t think there was anything to cover up and just recorded her life”,
hence, my dad knows that she spent the night at your place.’
‘Ah,’ Zhengqing said wondering if
he should feel guilty.
‘Then he saw your “Love you! Jiāyóu!”
comment.’
‘Yeah…?’
‘I don’t know if he’s angry or not.
He had this kind of “Young people these days” expression.’
‘O-kay.’
‘So prepare yourself mentally.’
‘Okay.’
Yin Shi was frustrated with
Zhengqing, how could he only reply “Okay” to everything? Have some reaction,
like “then what do we do, ah, you have to help me” etc, so then he could feel
his importance as a brother in law. This Serious and his “okay”, so
frustrating!
After that, things seemed less
fraught between Zhenqing and the old one. Guohao didn’t say anything until
Zhengqing was about to leave when he asked, ‘Tell me when you want to get
married?’
When Yin Ting heard this, she
became shy and hid behind Zhengqing.
‘When the event is over, depending
on Yin Ting’s schedule afterwards. I want her to enjoy the process well. Wait
until its over, then prepare for it.’
Yin Shi winked at his sister, she
turned even redder.
‘Hao,’ Guohao said, ‘When Yin Ting
wins, we will prepare.’
Zhengqing was slightly surprised,
but he quickly replied, ‘hao.’
Yin Ting poked her head out from
behind Zhengqing’s back and asked her father, ‘What if I can’t win?’
Guohao blinked, ‘Fight.’
Yin Ting was confused about the
whole conversation, but waited till Zhengqing got home before she called him to
discuss it.
‘Well, he really is trying to tell
you not to be discouraged and work hard to win. And he is also angry with me,
so he’s trying to show me some resistance.’
‘Why is he angry?’ she asked
innocently.
‘He found out you stayed with me.’
‘Ah!’ she was shocked.
‘Your sunshine is in my house,
remember?’
‘Ah!’
Yin Ting was annoyed with herself,
‘Why do I always do this kind of stupid things?’
She sighed.
‘This is the kind of person you
are.’ He said.
‘So being stupid doesn’t matter.’
‘You’re not stupid, you just lack
the skill, awareness and inspiration.’ He replied jokingly.
She laughed, ‘So…?’
‘I love you, so jiayou!’
‘Can I win?’
‘Just enjoy it, the process is
fun.’
She blushed, she wanted to tell him
he sounded really coloured. But since he’s been truly coloured, she was really
embarrassed.
Lying on her bed that evening, she
felt like these two days had been a rollercoaster of emotion. While she was at
the bottom of the valley everything dragged, but now she was happy the
day passed in a blink of an eye. So happiness makes the time go faster, so one
must cherish it.
Tomorrow will be a new day.
She laughed; the new day will be a
beautiful day. She had these expectations.
She went to sleep.
The next day, she spent some time
with her father. She went out and took a lot of photos. She posted on her blog
about the joy of roller-coasters. About how it moves through peaks and troughs,
but keeps going never discouraged or proud. It allows everyone who is close to
embrace it; knowing that the highs and lows are thrilling and stimulating. It
is a pleasure to experience failure and success.
She immediately logged out and
didn’t read any comments after that.(Zuben: I dunno why they keep calling it chicken soup, it's cheese bites)
Zhengqing had to work overtime that
evening, so she made his dinner and sent it to him.
In the evening, she talked to him
over the phone. She watched TV with her
dad. Then Shen Jiaqi called her and asked her out to karaoke the next evening.
She felt life was quite fulfilling.
The next day, Yin Ting spent sometime
with her father, before going to her management agency to read through reports
and sign a few documents. Then she went out to take pictures of the scenery.
Her post for that day was the busy
city; shot from the bus and while she was walking and from the offices of her
management agency.
She wrote: Everywhere there is
beauty, you just need to see it.
She didn’t read the comments again,
remaining unaware of the mockery, hence completely unaffected.
One comment was: On this level, a
primary school pupil’s essay is better. You dare to say you’re doing well and
dare show off.
Since she was going out, she wasn’t
able to cook for Zhengqing. She went to karaoke with her sisters. Zhengqing got
off work in good time so he went to the Yin family home. Yin Shi was not at
home, so Guohao had dinner alone. When Zhengqing arrived, Guohao had a subtle
feeling in his heart. He felt good that someone was with him. When Yin Shi
returned, he found the old man having an animated discussion about business
with Serious.
Yin Tin and her sister’s spent the
whole evening singing. Even Yu Fei turned up. Yin Ting knew they were here to
cheer her up.
‘The big river flows eastwards. The
stars of the sky are in the Big Dipper…the shots are taken when the shots are
taken, and the winds and raging fire ignite the Kyushu!’ they sang and danced.
Yufei took the photos, she felt it was too inconvenient to pose.
When Yin Ting returned home,
Zhengqing had not left yet. Yin Shi had gone to his bar, so it was only
Zhengqing and her dad at home. Zhengqing was urging Guohao to take his
medicine. Yin Ting smiled at her dad grumbling about Zhenging, but he still took
his medicine and went to sleep.
‘Did you have fun?’ he asked her.
She nodded and flew into his arms.
She held him in a hug.
The insurmountable contradiction that
her dad had talked about had been solved. It hadn’t been irresolvable but it
just needed an adjustment of mind. The person who works - works. The person
who plays, plays. You don’t have to be tied to each other to be in love, to
respect each other’s needs, to give each other space and freedom.
Yin Tin looked up and accepted
Zhengqing’s kiss. After she asked him, ‘I am going to show my enchanting
talents tomorrow. I may end up being mocked by a lot of people, if I run to your
house, will you be able to stand it?’
‘I don’t care about them.’ He said
coolly.
Yin Ting smiled broadly.
The next day, she posted new
pictures on her blog. In one of them she was walking with her father. In
another she was wearing her engagement ring with Zhengqing, in the last one she was
dancing with her friends.
She wrote: These are the days of my
life: walking with my father, I got engaged to my boyfriend, I went to karaoke
with my friends. I’m doing well.
The next photo was of two pairs of
shoes; a lady's pair and a girl's pair.
She wrote: These are my shoes. I
smaller ones I got twelve years ago, the newer ones I bought a few days ago.
There was a close up shot of the
logo on the shoes.
She wrote: These two shoes are
Xius. The smaller ones are one of a kind. Xiu does not produce such shoes in
this size. Twelve years ago, my parents founded Xiu. My father had two pairs of
shoes in the same style created; one pair for my mother and one pair for me.
When my mother died from an illness, my father let her wear those shoes to send
her off. The name Xiu is derived from my mother’s name Yu Xiuping. After she
died, my father sold Xiu to Yongkai. In Yongkai’s hands, Xiu has grown to a
nationally recognised brand, but in my father’s eyes Xiu will always hold a special
meaning.
Today’s Xiu has given many people positive
and meaningful meanings. For me, it means ‘Mother’ and my parents’ love.
My mother was a business woman and
a very beautiful lady. Xiu is a good name, it is a beautiful word. In truth, my
mother was very ordinary, the word ‘Xiu’ is very ordinary, but to me, in my
thought they are beautiful because I love them.
When my mother was sick, she became
afraid I would be unhappy later and I didn’t want to worry her, so I developed
a habit of writing diaries. I wouldn’t write about the sad things, just the
happy occurrences. Later, I discovered that sad things don’t need to be written
down, I could remember them well. But the happy things, I would need the
diaries to remember them. Happiness is so easy to lose, so we should cherish
it.
When I went to college, I learnt
photography and began blogging. I retained that habit to remember the happy
things, to let my mother know I am happy. Then, I discovered I am really happy.
Once people are determined to pursue what they want, and work hard towards it,
they will be able to achieve it. You will get what you are looking for. Even if
you can’t see it, you won’t get it naturally. So seek happiness, find happiness.
It’s important.
I kept writing happy things,
I’m sure my mom sees it. Then someone
shared their happiness with me on my blog. I realised sharing was a lot of fun.
My dream is to be a traveller and share the beauty I see with others. I have
been to many places and written many reviews. Before I joined the event, I
turned over the previous photos from my travels to find the most inspiring
story. But then I thought others’ stories were better than mine. Can distant
beauty be more than the beauty around me? I decided to stay home and write
about the beauty around me.
This a good platform to share. Many
good stories are being told, everyone is sharing their joy. This is the
happiness of this era.
I believe if my mother knew that
many women know Xiu, wear Xiu, like Xiu and have fun and share happiness, she
would also be very happy.
After column, Yin Ting put a
picture on her little diary from years ago. The date was written in and a
little girl was writing in the diary. A woman stood behind the little girl
smiling down at her. They were both dressed in similar clothes. The words on
the diary were: You believe she has not gone far, she is by your side. If you
believe she can feel your happiness, she will certainly see it. So be happy.
(Zuben: Don’t understand the magic at work here)
After she posted the new article, she
logged off and went to the kitchen to try cooking a new recipe. On the
internet, the mockery and derision continued. She did not care. She did not
expect to win the event. Zhengqing was right, the most important was that she
enjoyed the process.
The article really caused a lot of
flame, but what surprised Zhengqing was that someone tagged him in a long blog
post.
The person wrote: I really want to
see Tingting Yuli 413, but she has said she will no longer read comments or
tags, so I had to tag you. I hope you can share my feelings with her. I too,
saw the sun.
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